" Jailbreak! In the afternoon we move on some of Chicago's high schools to liberate kids from the racist pig lies which are forced on them in the jails known as schools.

" Wargasm! At night, we come together in celebration of the struggle. Details will be announced at the movement centers."

Now the girl is telling us that the jailbreaks and the wargasm have been moved back to tomorrow because the Panthers have asked us to join them in a highly-disciplined, no-violence demonstration at the Federal Building where the Conspiracy 8 are being tried this afternoon. The Panthers are going to be the marshalls, and the thing they do is always super organized, so we are going to be doing what they ask us to do while we're there.

The Boston groups collects in a corner to discuss what specific things they are about to do. This is what is called an affinity group, in other words, all the people from an area, who are used to working and fighting together. The affinity group keeps its members supplied, transports them, and looks after them in the actions.

The first talk is about who's missing from last night. A guy from Boston, everyone knows him, has been shot. Someone says he thought we had 24 people from Boston here last night. We count. There are only 14 here now. Boston has been hit harder than most groups. People name several people who might have been arrested.

We get on to reorganizing the running groups. The running groups are the people who actually stick together when we go out running. Affinity groups like Boston stay largely together at the actions, but are too big to be depended on. The ideal size of a running group, it is decided, is five or six.

A couple of people volunteer for security (standing guard and checking everyone who comes in), and some start looking into food. All the women from the center get together for a quick meeting because they are about to leave for their 9:30 action at the induction center.

They are buckling tight the snaps on their leather jackets. They all have some kind of jeans on and wear boots. They seem completely at case with their clothes and with their heads. It is a very beautiful sight. Some of them have tied their hair behind their heads, some have it loose and are bringing their helmets down over it. They are young (20), but tough just like us. They've probably been to rock 'n' roll and back.

A couple of them are especially good-looking as chicks. They look great in helmets. The Weathermen look very good as a group. The boys all have long hair. It's the cultural trademark of their political identity. the way the Panther's black skin is theirs.

I like what the Weathermen are. They are more honest about them selves than other revolutionaries. They don't cut their hair so they can share the oppression of the majority of white working people, and they want to bust up the schools as the source of that oppression. And, of course, they're right, the schools are it-the worst deal in our whole miserable lives.

The Motor City 9 are included in our movement center. The Motor City 9 are nine girls who have been ripping off high schools in the Detroit area. They have been pictured in SDS newspapers. They are pretty tough. They are getting ready to go with the others.

A couple of girls kiss their boyfriends goodbye. One boy is quietly talking with some of the chicks about whether he can come on the action with his girl. He says they're going to stay together because they're both on their way out to the Coast, and don't want to risk having one of them arrested alone, leaving the other hung up in Chicago. The women tell him that they all have to make sacrifices for the movement. But his girl decides not to go. The boy tells the others, "You've got to find happiness for yourself, first, before you can find it for other people."

I have been assigned to one of the running groups, but am undecided about what I want to do. I know that I believe that the Weathermen's actions are pretty much confused politically. This makes me think that I'm a real counterfeit by letting myself be put into a running group. Being in a running group means that I have responsibilities to all the other members of the group, and, also, a responsibility to act in a certain violent way when the Weathermen go into the streets. I am not ready to act that way.

On the other hand. I sympathize with the Weathermen's idea of the big smash. Their attack is a total one and a very self-involving one. It is something I can feel much more than explain.

I am sitting on my blankets while people mill around and doze. I feel the pressure of polities on my existence. The Weathermen are here because they have to be. I may like what I think is anarchistic, self-involving action, but they really belive that they are responsible for helping the Viet Cong behind the lines. The only feelings that could hold me to being a Weatherman are feelings of guilt.